I am stuck. Stuck in the middle of liking someone enough to give them a chance with me and wanting to be unattached. I want to give this boy a chance, because I really do like him. However, Richmond's silly gossip trail has left me second guessing myself. I like to think I am stronger and more self assured than to allow silly rumors and harsh words deter me from what I want. However, I am not sure I know what I want and therefore I am allowing other people to affect my decisions. I want to scream at everyone around me judging my motives and what I do. I want to live!! and not be bothered by anyone else.
The boy is so super nice to me and treats me with the utmost respect. I feel like a goddess when I am around him and that is wonderful. Why is it that people around me scoff at the idea of him, and why do I care. Maybe I need to escape this city for a weekend, maybe I need a reality check, maybe I need to ignore all the caddy stares. I do not know what I should do in order to reach a sense of clarity, but I need it.